Monday, July 28, 2008

There is hope, did you know?

I was listening to a sermon yesterday and really don't remember what the whole thing was about. The statement I do remember is: "There is HOPE". It really just clicked with me. I tend to worry and think only about the things that may go wrong. I think about my children's future and wonder what the world will be like for them to grow up in. I even think about my grandchildren and wonder the same. God was giving me a little wake up call. He is my hope, the hope of my future gengerations and even the world's hope. He is here dwelling with us, which means hope is all around. I thank God he opened my eyes and I pray that I am able to keep the HOPE alive in my heart and mind.

Psalm 31:24---
Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD.

Psalm 71:14---But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.

Jeremiah 17:7---Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is.

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17----16
Now our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God, even our Father, which hath loved us, and hath given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace,17Comfort your hearts, and stablish you in every good word and work.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Sick kids...Peace, Contentment and Patience--Oh My!


Well my weekend off was unexpectedly hindered by a sick baby. Baby Girl woke up with fever, Saturday morning. I treated it, then Boog and I took off to his friends birthday party. He had a blast with his friends, we spent a few hours there playing and visiting. Baby girl stayed sick and the next day I took her to a clinic where they said she had a infected throat. All was fine as long as she kept drinking. That night she started with a ulcer like sore on her tongue. When we woke up the next morning she had a few more on her lips, so off to the doctor again. Well another doctor bill later, we are told it will run its course. AAAHHH!!! I hate spending money to be told something I already knew. When will I learn to just wait it out a little longer?? Anyhoo, Baby Girl started feeling better by Tuesday then guess who gets sick, yep, you guessed it Boog. He ran high fever for about 24 hours, then was totally fine. Not really sure if they had the same thing, or if Boog's was just milder. It really sucks that a good friend of mine is in this week with her kids from Utah visiting and we cannot get together. We hope to get some time in tomorrow, before they leave on Saturday morning.

As for the rest of my post, I am just really dealing with being content and learning to have patience. I am ready to move on in a certain area of our lives and Gus is waiting. I am submiting to him, but it is really hard. I desire to follow God's authority and headship in this and all areas of my life, but being patient sure is hard. I know the desires God has set in my heart and that He will fullfill them in His good timing. I also know that God has placed Gus as my head and that I trust his decsions. So, I am praying for patience and peace during this time, that I may become a nobel wife who loves and fears the Lord.

Proverbs 31: 10-12, 26-30

10 [c] A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.

11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.

12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.

28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:

29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Staying friends with non-belivers... thoughts and a little vent.

I have been having such internal conflicts with this recently. I am part of an online board that is a break off from a miscarriage support forum. There are about 40 of us that post very regularly. We are very diverse, Christian, Athiests, Agnositic, Catholic, Wiccan and so on. We are very close and have learned a lot about and from each other of the last few years we have been together. I am very close to many of these ladies, but some times posts get going that bash my personal beliefs. I usually just stay away from them and just discuss other things with these ladies. I really do not expect anything different from non-believers. However, at times there are a few of them that like to try and entice us(Christians) into a debate when there is no reason to enter. The sole reason is to try and show how our christian beliefs are wrong or twisted.

I really like to know how these friends are doing, but sometimes I feel the need to walk away. So I don't know if I need to just take a break, keep on going and try to show the love of Christ to these ladies when opportunity presents itself or just break away completely??

I always go back to the argument that Jesus spent time among the sinners, to show himself to them. I do not want to be the type of Christian who hides among those who only believe the same way I do. I just really don't know what to do.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

My baby boy Boog is 4 today

I cannot believe that 4 years have passed since giving birth to my first baby. He is turning into such a little boy. He makes me smile and laugh everyday and keeps me on my toes just about every waking moment. I love him so much and know that God has given us a wonderful person to raise. God gave Boog to us on a very important day. Exactly one year before on July 13, 2003 we lost our first baby at 13 weeks. When I found out I was pregnant again and that my due date was July 20th, God told me that my baby would be born on July 13th. God is so very good, in that on the very same day I had to experience a terrible loss, he blessed me with life one year later. I love Boog and cannot wait to see how he grows and matures into a young man.

Boog and Baby Girl today

Boog and me today.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Some of my favorite songs

Divine Romance by Phil Wickham

Hold Me Now by Jennifer Knapp--- I could put up many of her songs, this one is older, but I love it:

There are others that I like, but these two were on my heart today. There are times that I have a hard time accepting God's grace and love. I feel totally undeserving. It is at those moments that He reminds me that I am his daughter and he loves me no matter what. Just as I love my children unconditionally. They may not always do the right thing, but I help them and love them just the same. God has an even greater love for us. Praise be to you my Father God!

Friday, July 4, 2008

The weeks have just flown by...

Sorry, I have not blogged in such a long time. We have finally moved from our apartment. We had lived in that apartment since getting married 6 years ago. Gus had lived there even longer, 7 1/2 years this month. We moved just across town into a townhouse. We have been here 2 weeks now and have been busy getting everything organized. We are hoping that this is a one year temporary stop between our apartment and buying a home. This was a good move, we have nice landlords and we have been able to purchase our very first washer and dryer. We also have a nice private patio out the back door. We are very happy with this move.

I have had some bittersweet moments since moving. Although I was ready to move out of the apartment, it was the place I moved into with Gus and the place where we brought our children home. I will miss it just a little for the memories that our family made there. Moving has also given us the opportunity to move the children into their own room. For those who do not know we have slept with the children in our room and the plan was to move them out once Baby Girl was old enough to go into a room with Boog. Well that time has come and I was so nervous. I am happy to have them sleeping in a room of their own, but I really miss their presence in our room. They have transitioned wonderfully and have been sleeping great with out skipping a beat. It was a much harder transition for mama than my babies.

I am hoping to be posting more often soon and to get some photos of the new place up as well.