Friday, May 30, 2008

I've gotten my first tag: Getting to Know Me!

Carlie over at Why Ask Why has tagged me. This is my first tag, so here you go get to know me a bit more.

4 Things I was doing 10 years ago:

1. Finishing up my first year of college
2. Getting back from my first mission trip to Mexico
3. Looking for a summer job while home between semesters
4. Not knowing that in about 4 months I would meet my future husband.

4 Things I was doing 5 years ago:

1. Had just found out we were expecting our first baby (sadly we lost him)
2. Was just about to make my first anniversary of marriage
3. Working full time as a RN in the Emergency Room ( I still do this but only part time)
4. Was enjoying blissful ignorance of thinking every pregnancy ended with baby

4 Things I did yesterday:

1. Went blueberry picking
2. Visited with friends
3. Had my teeth cleaned
4. Found out that we officially were approved to move into the townhouse!

4 Shows I like to watch:

1. Naruto
2. Criminal Minds
4. Antiques Roadshow

4 Things I love to do:

1. Talk with hubby
2. Listen to my kids laugh
3. Visit with friends and family
4. Read

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My adventure in making Bread

I have been wanting to give bread baking a try and finally got a recipe from my friend's blog A Life at Home. She got it from here Tammy's Recipes. So here is a little picture tour of my bread making. It was really easy and turned out better than I thought it would.
Here are all the ingredients I started with:

Here are all the ingredients once they were in the bread machine. I used the bread machine to do the kneading for me!

Here is what the dough looked liked once the kneading was done.

Here is the dough once I pressed it into my loaf pan, then I had to wait for it to rise.

Here is the dough once it had risen, about 30 or 40 minutes.

Here is the finished product! It was really easy and tasted great. Hubby did not like it that much, which disappointed me a little. However, the kids ate it up!

Monday, May 26, 2008

How to feel beautiful?

This is a emotion that I struggle with often. I do not feel beautiful many days and have often pondered on the why and the what. Why do I have this dreadful feeling and What can I do about it? I know that this has everything to do with how I see myself internally. I know that if things do not change on the inside, no matter what outside changes I make, I would still not see beauty. So these pondering have lead me to these verses.

Proverbs 31:30---
Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.

1 Peter 3: 1-6 ---1 Wives, likewise, be submissive to your own husbands, that even if some do not obey the word, they, without a word, may be won by the conduct of their wives, 2 when they observe your chaste conduct accompanied by fear. 3 Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— 4 rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. 5 For in this manner, in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves, being submissive to their own husbands, 6 as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord, whose daughters you are if you do good and are not afraid with any terror.

I need to remember that outward beauty is: fleeting, vain, not about clothing or jewerly.

But that real beauty is: FEAR of the LORD, chaste conduct, a gentle and quiet spirit, submitting to my husband, is hidden in the heart and being holy before God.

I pray that God will really help me have a full understanding of this and learn to know that my true beauty lies deep within and comes with being a daughter to the KING.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Evacuated from Home

This past Saturday we had to up and leave our home. A train had derailed and spilled some toxic chemicals and we were in the area that had to evacuate our home. It was not scary, but a bit inconvenient b/c I had to go to work that night and Sunday night. As I sit and thought on this, I had to chastise myself for being so angry about it. Thoughts of China and Burma kept popping into my head. Of all those people who have no home to go back to and who have lost loved ones. I am thankful for what I have and the blessings that have been given to me and my family. I hate that there is tragedy in the world. I am happy that God loves me enough to scruff me up a bit from time to time and see what is really important and to put things in perspective.

We are now back at home safe and sound. My heart and prayers are with all those people who have experienced real tragedy all across the globe.

Friday, May 16, 2008

I did not sign up for this!

While watching a news program today they were interviewing a lady who is trying out for the Olympics. Anyhoo, one of the topics they touched on was her 5 year old autistic son. She talked about how she would pray and pray to God for a cure. Finally she went to her Pastor and told him "I did not sign up for this!". He told her "Yes, you did". She said from that day on she quit praying for a cure and started praying for the strength to be the best she could be for her son. (I am ad-libbing a bit). I just started crying. This is one of the first times I have cried at something random being on the television.
I think it just hit my mommy heart. There are so many days that I say to God or to myself that I did not sign up for this. Then through that moment my eyes are opened and I see that God has given me these children and hand chose them for me. They test me and help mold me on a daily basis. I know I am such a different person than I was 4 years ago before Boog and Baby Girl came along. I am looking forward to the day that I look back and do not recognize that old person and can rejoice in the person God molds me into through the help of my wonderful blessings.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Am I doing Enough?

This is the question that plaques me daily. I know in my heart of hearts that God has called me to be at home and to minister to my husband and children, however this question nags me all the time. I always get the feeling that I am not "doing enough" for God. That I should be involved in more "things" or helping in different ways. I can never tell if this is just guilt(which I know is not from the Lord) or a actual stirring to do something.
I don't want anything to take me away or take my focus from my top calling. Is that how I should determine if this nagging feeling is of God or of man? If it were to interfere with what I absolutely know I should be doing, then it is probably a guilt feeling and trying to interfere with my true calling?

I hate that I question these things. I know my calling and I have peace about it, why can't it just be that easy?

Starting off here....

I have been contemplating blogging for some time now. I have many random thoughts that I release to my hubby and he just laughs at me. Not in a bad way. He says I think on things too much. He is right, I am a worrier by nature. God had been working trust and patience in me over the last few years. It is not as bad as it use to be, but I have a good stretch of road ahead of me. With that all said I hope in some way that blogging will help me to get some of these thoughts out and maybe get feedback from others. Now I just have to figure out what topic to start blogging about. :)